Guest Contributor: Kristal Carter
“It’s not easy to get a diamond to sparkle and shine in exactly
the right way. Depth contributes to the diamond’s sparkle in a big way. If a
cut is too shallow, light will simply pass through the stone and leave through
the pavilion (the lower half) without any reflection.”
I get a lot of my listening time on
my drive in and drive home from work. As I listened to this most recent message
the Pastor began to speak about Diamonds and how they are created. He talked
about how the shine of the diamond and the clarity comes from the depth of the
diamond. This portion of that message resonated so very strongly in my spirit.
I began to think about myself and how I saw myself. I began to think about how
far I have come when it comes to what I believe about myself. I began to assess
what I believed regarding my own beauty and where I believed it came from.
For as long as I can remember, I
always looked to the outside world and other people in my life to measure what
beauty was. I consistently compared myself to women that I knew and didn’t know
to see if I measured up to what I thought was attractive. Being a young woman
who was teased, sometimes maliciously and sometimes in “fun”, I began to look
very closely at the things that I believed that I disliked about my appearance. At the time, I was unaware that the words
that were being spoken to me and about me began to frame my perception of
myself. In that frame, I believed “No one just walks around smiling, Ill smile
when I have something to smile about”. I thought “I’m just big boned, I’ve
never been skinny, it doesn’t matter what I eat”. I suppressed my gift of
difference and always subscribed to someone else’s idea of what my sense of
style should be.
At the point in my life, when I
felt the most displaced. When everything in my world seemed the most uncertain,
I had allowed these things to become my truth and every relationship up to that
point had affirmed these “truths” in me. It was then I met and was introduced
to one who not only told me the truth, but allowed me to see the truth in me.
Only then was I able to find my shine, only then was I able to know the truth
of who I really am. The deeper I dug into that truth the more radiant I became.
It was only then that I knew where true beauty completely resides. My life and
perspective completely changed when I experienced and got to know, Jesus.
You see, my relationship with Jesus
allowed me to see the depths of pain. I began to see how I saw myself was not
only wrong but it was a lie. The deeper I dug into me, the more I got to know
my true self, the more I saw myself differently. It’s okay to be different, I
was created to stand out. I smile now because I know what JOY is and how it is
my strength. I don’t have to be skinny to feel good about myself, but I do have
to make a conscious effort to take care of my physical body by exercise and
balanced eating. I do in fact have my own sense of style, it can be inspired by
others yet still fit who I am!
You see it wasn’t until I began to
stop looking at my outer appearance through the eyes of others and comparing
myself as opposed to embracing my difference that I began to shine. It wasn’t
until I sought the truth of who I am through my relationship and who Jesus says
I am that I began to understand that the depth of my shine, my ability to
sparkle in a BIG way could only come from my acceptance of that truth!
This is amazing, inspiring and encouraging!! Thank you so much for sharing, I needed to read this today for more reasons than one! I look forward to reading the next by Kstar, her words truly bring life and healing. -Bmarie
ReplyDeleteK LOVE THIS! Thanks so much for being transparent and sharing Christ’s beauty with us all daily
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